The altar has been cleaned and rearranged and reconsecrated, an ancestor altar has been set up. I am journalling in fits and starts, and engaging in my basic practices regularly.
I find myself wanting to write here, but at the same time I am …not afraid, but feeling uncomfortable with… the idea of opening myself up here again.
I think it comes from the fact while I was working and growing and developing as a blogger and writer here, other parts of my life were falling apart…I was at one and the same time running to the Divine and running away from life, lost on the road of my life’s journey.
It can be heartbreaking to realize that things have fallen apart.
Times like these often have me turning to the book “When Things Fall Apart” by Pema Chodron. A collection of essays by that talented Buddhist Abbot and teacher. At the same time I find myself lamenting the lack of books and guidance for the Contemporary Pagan. It often seems like other more ‘mainstream’ religions have books and websites and resources to help guide their followers through the many rough and painful struggles in life.
At the same time, I can see that contemporary Paganism has these sorts of resources, just in different forms and places. Websites, and blogs, and podcasts, festivals and workshops and our large and sometimes complicated tribes of Pagan fellow traveler’s. The resources are there, but are trickier to categorize and find. Many times the advice or guidance we need in the moment is interwoven with the writer’s observations of everyday life or the current dramatic scandal of the moment.
What do you think of these observations?
Peace and Blessings on your journey,