Dear Friends and Pagani,
So this morning I spent a few small moments staring into a candle flame, trying to meditate. I cannot honestly say if I achieved a meditative state but I felt good about having taken the plunge and feeling as if I am making progress.
I worked one of the part time jobs today, at the theme park. I was at an outside bottled beverage stand. I tried to breathe, and remain open to the Numinous… colors seemed brighter and it seemed as if folks were more receptive to my friendly greetings as they walked by…
An unexpected benefit of all this proper breathing…
In through the nose, out through the mouth. Deep breaths filling up the lungs, imagining I am breathing as much from the base of the spine, and the top of my skull and my privates (flexing those muscles on the inhalation) as from my nose. Breathing in and imagining it filling my body from the base of my spine to the top of my skull. Breathing in the Breath of Life, Breathing out my connection to the world and to all living things… even the atoms and cells as all is touched by the Numinous.
…anyways I was standing much straighter and using much better posture than usual and my feet and ankles hurt less today than they have at the end of some of my other long days.
The colors are so much more vivid, the shapes are clearer, and I am more aware of my surroundings. In some ways it is a little spiritually exhausting to always be so connected and aware of the Holiness within all of Creation. Exhausting and yet oh so delicious….
Much to learn,