Friends,
Work has been insanely busy until just recently. The sudden freeing up of time left me feeling rather out of sorts… at a loss of what to do with time I suddenly had again. Having the time and mental and emotional and physical resources suddenly freed up I am trying to do a bit more in my creative sphere. Much of my morning “me” time has been spent kind of gathering myself for the madness of my day.
I have been trying to use my spare time in a more nurturing manner than just doom-scrolling through social media. Part of this has been trying to unfollow various creators that do not fuel my peace or strengths or inspiration. In itself that could be a full time job given my ADHD as I consistently find myself with very few followers and following 1000+ accounts on many of the major sites. “Ohhh, shiny!” *clicks “follow”* I have also been trying to focus more on things that amuse and inspire to hopefully train the algorithms to not be feeding me outrage and upset.
I am well aware of things that I need to be outraged and upset about. I really don’t need to be focusing on the worry and the upset, I need to be focusing on what I CAN do about the things that are worrying and upsetting.
Maybe it is my 80s inner child, but I have been focusing on a form of Think Globally, Act Locally. In my case this has meant a few different things. Protecting my peace, as mentioned above. Seeking out some mental and spiritual nourishment. Taking care of myself physically.
That last has come up in a few different ways. As a man in his 50s my Doctor has decided it is time I got a Colon Cancer screening. We finally settled upon the test where the company mails you a box and you get to channel your inner Sharon Osbourne and send the resulting mess back in for testing. Nothing too dramatic in the results but just enough that the Doctor wants me to get a Colonoscopy. Fun, fun… although I have found the *PERFECT* shirt to wear to the clinic the day of the procedure and am looking forward to it’s arrival! (and the artists actually has a number of great shirts on their site!
I am also scheduled, in the next few weeks for an overnight Sleep Study / Mask Fitting at a Sleep Clinic as the at home Sleep Study I took indicated a major Sleep Apnea issue, that may explain a lot of my malaise the last couple of years. In between the stress & depression and the sudden weight gain.
I mentioned mental and spiritual nourishment and a few of the folks I have been listening to or reading lately have helped stir up some ideas and inspiration that I am cooking up some short pieces around, even as I struggle with the writing of some longer pieces.
Southern Bramble a Podcast of Crooked Ways (here and here)
New World Witchery
A Bit Fruity with Matt Bernstein (linked to their Youtube, but available all over as a podcast as well)
Conspirituality
and some of the newsletters and posts from T. Thorn Coyle
All of these have been helpful in my recent efforts at Mental and Spiritual Nutrition.
Let me know who you listen to or read when you find yourself needing a reset or to improve the mental/emotional/spiritual diet in the comments below?
Bliss, and Blessed Be,
Pax / Geoffrey