Remembering and learning and looking forward

So I have poured my libation in memory and honor of Dr. Martin Luther King, and the many others known and unkown to me who have worked and struggled to help my country struggle towards its more perfect union.

No lights, no spectral visitation, some rather well timed wind gusts but they could have been entirely concidental on a breezy Florida night.

I don’t know that I needed any spectral evidence… I feel humbled to look back at the various civil rights struggles my nation has moved through in its 200 plus years.  I find myself looking forward to the Innaguration and the moving forward into a new hopeful era.

I find myself realizing I have much to learn about the Civil Rights pioneers from the Sufferagettes and Abolitionists to the Civil Rights leaders of the 1960′s, to the Queer pioneers who helped fight for ~ and continue to fight for ~ equality.

I will be spending the day tomorrow on projects and housework and keeping an eye on the innaugural coverage.

Peace, and Blessed Be!

Pax

Pray for a sick kitten…

tigger-at-restWell, Tiger is a cat really.  But as I am finding out, they are always your little kitten when you’ve raised them…. if this is one/one millionth of what a parent feels I am SO never, never going to give my father grief the next time he asks me if I have an umbrella and a coat cause he saw a news report of rain in Florida!

We took Tiger in to the Veterinarian yesterday, he’s been sick… he got some anti-inflammatories and antibiotics… today they called and his blood test indicated he was severely dehydrated… so he’s at the Vet’s this weekend… we are waiting on the results of the F.I.V. and Feline Leukemia tests… (standard ones…just in case) and hoping that his liver function is all-right..

Mother Celestial and Father Divine,

Health, Wealth, and Happiness,

For me and for mine!

Blessed Be, So Mote It Be!

A Prayer for a lady and her dogs…

hecate4Thrice Great Hecate, I call to you,

Most honored amongst the gods,

Lady of the Earth and Sky and Sea,

Under brightest Moon I call across the nights to you,

The New Moon’s Mistress,

Torch bearing, Lady of the Hounds, hear me.

You who is the Queen of Phantoms,

Keeper of the Keys of Creation,

Crossroads Golden clad Guide,

Gorgo, Mormo, Thousand faced Night,

Come unto us.

Come unto us oh eldest of the Gods,

Who is also the Night Wandering Maiden,

Come unto us,

Bringing your justice and judgement down

upon those who have slain the innocent animals

of an unmet sister witch from across the World!

Thanks be to the Morrigan

Having poured a libation in thanks to You,

And spoken my thanks to You in the World of Flesh,

I now write these words of thanks, and praise, to You,

In This Place betwixt and between the worlds of Mind and Spirit.

Hail and Well met oh Raven of Battles,

Goddess of Soveriegnty

She who came in answer to my cross-roads prayer,

So many years ago,

Bringing a Tsunami’s wave of power and presence,

Bringing Holy Terror and the answer to prayers,

And bringing an aquantence with Hecate in your wake.

Thanks and honor and praise to you oh Mighty Midnight Queen of the Celts.

The Heart of an Invocation

The Heart of an Invocation

“I Open my heart, my mind, and my hands,

Work through me and upon me,

Speak to me and speak through me,

Let me be a vessel, through which

Your love is poured forth across the lands.”

(c) Pax / Geoffrey Stewart 2008

I am a little proud of this one, I was trying to write a prayer, or something for the Solstice, and this was was happened… not so Solsticey, but a delightful little prayer none the less!

I like the flexibility of it, you can address it to the Goddess or God or the both of them, and you can change the focus of it a little by changing the word “love” out for something like “wisdom” if, for example you were invoking the Lord alone…

Not that Love or Wisdom belongs exclusively to the Lady or Lord, respectively, but I like the flexibility of the formula…

Now to contemplate the Solstice… and perhaps get a little sleep…

Stream of Consciousness on Offerings and Prayer

Shouldn’t it be magic enough that we come together in religious fellowship seeking, and achieving, in ritual a moment of gnosis through united prayer and offerings and communion?

As you know, if you’ve been reading and poking around this blog and its pages, I pray on a daily basis, and I make offerings of insence on a regular basis.

I was also, sort of, challenged recently to put more of myself and my experience into this blog.  I wrote the above quote just a little earlier today and find my mind returning to it.

I also have prayer and offerings on the brain lately… maybe I should work on the relevant pages… but I think I will just write some things out and see where they lead…

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My offerings of incense…

I ready the incense cone or stick in my special dish of salt.  I have a lighter ready.

First, I breathe.  In through my nose, and out through my mouth.  A moment spent concentrating on my breath, on the rythm of it, focusing inward.  Centering myself as best I can.  Starting to tell myself, and the universe, that I am doing something special.   If I think about it, I also Ground, but for the purpose of offering I find it isn’t as necessary as it is for other things.

I stand, raising  my arms so that the upper arm is roughly paralel to the ground and my forearms are upright, my hands are open and palms upward – roughly paralel to my upper arms and the ground.  When I stand in this ancient posture or prayer, known as the orens position, there is a part of me that thrills to the knowledge that I am trying to speak with and honor my Deities in the same way that They were honored in the ancient world.

On the mental level, I know that repeating this position will help signal to the Universe and the Gods, my intention.  On the physical level I can almost feel the atoms and cells of my body tingle; the subtle parts of me that are also part of the Divine recognizing that I am trying to reach out and up and within to Them.

If I cannot stand, I will at least raise my arms.

When that subtle shift in …something… lets me know that I have gotten Their attention, I speak.

“I make an offering of incense to the Gods,

and the Guardian Spirits, of this Home.

Blessed Be, So Mote It Be.”

Then I bring my hands down and together, to my face, where I kiss them at the point where my thumbs meet my palms; sort of a physical ‘blessed be’ and a small gesture of my love for the Divinities, and our Guardian Spirits.   Then I bring them to touch my chest above my heart; this is sort of a physical ‘so mote it be’ and ‘thank you’, and a physical reminder that They are a part of me.  Then I lower my hands, pick up the lighter, and light the incense.

I will usually take a moment to stand there soaking in a small moment of peacefulness and Presence.  Then I will go about my day.

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You can read about my daily prayer on the Daily Practice page.  I usually will be saying this when I am driving to work.  This necessitates a lack of prayer gestures… and a slight change of wording…

“Mother Celestial and Father Divine,

Let me walk and drive in…”

For most situations of prayer durring my day I don’t do much in the way of gesturing if I am at work.

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I am minded of the commonly discussed definition of prayer as ‘asking Deity for something’.  That is so, so sad.

Prayer is speaking to, communicating with the Divine or Divinities of your choosing.  Prayer, and Offerings, and Ritual, should be about our relationship with the Gods and not about getting something from them!   The benefits of prayer and offerings are secondary to the truly important work of building and improving the relationship one has with the Divine.

That relationship nurtures our spirits everyday and nourishes our souls through times of trouble.  Those delightful fleeting moments of knowing are why the ancient monuments were built and why the sacred songs were sung.

So it’s the Full Moon…

I close my eyes and open my heart

And I pray, pray, pray.

I raise my hands and I raise my voice

And I pray, pray, pray.

Lady, shine, shine down on me.

Lord, walk, walk away with me.

As I walk this journey

Through the mystery

I raise my voice and I kiss my hands,

And I pray, pray, pray.

~Pax 2008(C)

Solstice collors on the Crepe Myrtle

Solstice collors on the Crepe Myrtle

The temperatures have been chilly and wintery, for Central Florida anyway, with days in the 60′s and 50′s and chillier nights.  The Crepe Myrtle in the front yard is almost asleep, only a few leaves, green and gold and scarlet, clinging to its uppermost branch tips.  Counterballanced by the Live Oaks, which have shed all the leaves they care to, thank-you-very-much, and are rustling in the breeze.

Tonight there is an open Moon Circle that Tracie The Red has suggested I attend.  I am going to.

I have run hot and cold about being involved in the Pagan community down here.  Cold lately but I’m warming up again.

Lots of reasons, but I think the biggest one is that I just haven’t ended up getting out and making any friends of my own since moving down here.  I need to work on that!  I’ve made a couple of friends down here or but not close see you every week and hang out friends.   Mostly, I’ve made friends with Gene’s friends and that strange relationship alchemy of his friends becoming our friends has occurred.  Yet I miss having some close, close peeps of my own!

Anyhow I must soon be off…

Peace,

Pax

Praying and Pouring

I went about my day today in a bit of a daze.  Strange hours of sleep and a lot of emotional ups and downs.  I’ve written some of my thoughts about Prop 8 and its ilk already.

I didn’t do any sort of formal ritual today.  I simply prayed and made some offerings.

I lit some incense for President Bush, President Elect Obama, and for John McCain and their guiding and guardian spirits.  I lit some Incense for the Lord and Lady of Witchcraft.  I poured some libations of water and wine to my beloved dead and to the Mighty Dead of the Craft and to our Fallen Soldiers.  I poured Water for Hecate.  I poured Wine for Dionysus.  I drank some wine and though some thoughts and am trying to assess a question on the minds of a lot of people right now.

What can I do?

I’m still working on that one.  I have a lot more praying and thinking to do.

Peace,

Pax

Giving Thanks…

I thank the Lord and Lady of Witchcraft for Their guidance and wisdom.  I thank Them for helping me to find a measure of my own wisdom and strength.  I thank them for the breath I breathe and the life I lead with my Partner and for every moment of every day.

I give thanks to Hecate, Queen of Phantoms and Lady of the Earth and Sky and Sea, for Her guidance.

I thank Dionysus for each and every moment of Inspiration and Intoxication and For the Sacred Sexuality that has touched my life in so many ways.

Thanks be to Aphrodite for bringing my Beloved into my life, and for the friends that have been and are a part of my life.  I thank Her for my family of blood and that of my choosing.

I thank all the Gods and Goddesses for a swiftly blossoming slow-motion snowflake on the windshield of my car.  Thanks that the windshield held, thanks that in that moment I knew fear and in its aftermath I know to look at what has scared me, to face my fear and to scry into it and move past it into Strength and Beauty and the rest…

Begining… again and again…

Tonight is the New Moon and I have honored Hecate.  I made some offerings of incense and poured a libation of consecrated water.  I also sent a prayer of thanks and remembrance to my Honored Predecessors… my own term for those members of the honored dead who were Queer.  In a sort of cultural, or perhaps subcultural, way they are my Ancestors too and I feel a need to grant them a special recognition.

I have been rereading A Book of Pagan Prayer by Ceiswr Serith.  A very useful little book, I highly reccomend it!  I contains a lot of wisdom and information about relating to the Gods through prayer and of the different types of prayer one may offer up to Them.  I found some inspiration in the pages of this book, and indeed some great prayers to Liberty for the upcoming U.S. Independence Day.

The last few weeks I have been just kind of coasting along.  I think I have somehow switched the Winter Solstice stasis/hibernation patterns of my youth for a Summer Solstice Stasis now that I live in a land of Stifling heat and humidity.  I have also been thinking, some, about this annual pattern of ‘hibernation’.  Everything but the most necessary duties, work and some housework, is dropped.

I am feeling betwixt and between as I realize I need something more than Solitary practice at this point in my life.  I also feel intimidated as I contemplate trying to immerse myself in Witchcraft and how shall I ballance that with building my career in the Hospitality and Restaurant industry?

I think… no, I know I need to meditate more, and pray more.  I need to open myself up to the inspiration of the Gods and I need to learn to listen to Them and to the wisdom of the world around me, as well as that quiet voice of Wisdom inside myself.

Strange.  I find myself thinking about a truly spiritual life and how it is sometimes like climbing up a seemingly endless series of fire escapes.  You work and you strive to reach a level and then there is more work ahead of you.  Living a faith, any faith, is like that.  It is a continuing journey, an eternal blossoming forth into the light of the Divine.

A Bacchant’sPrayer

I am a Bacchant!
By birth and by choice,
I follow in the wake of,
and revel in the ways of,
My Lord, Dionysus!
Ecstasy and Inspirations,
Tempered by
Responsibility and Moderation.
“All things in moderation!”
Even, on occasion, moderation.
Gentle, Wild One, Dancing,
Torch Bearing, Emancipator,
Who Prowls the Night,
Guide my steps,
Grant me good counsel,
That I may be
Good and Healthy and Prosperous and Wise
That I may be worthy of Thy leadership!
Blessed Be!

A prayer to Aphrodite

Sweet Seaborn Lady Arising
I call upon you, oh Laughter Loving Queen
In this season where we turn our thoughts to Love and Loving
I call upon you, oh Mother of the Loves,
Golden Goddess of Peace hear me.

I ask that You bless the leaders of my Nation,
oh Protectoress of the homelands,
Grant them wisdom, and loving hearts.
Let them see the soldiers of our country
as Children, and Spouses, and Parents.
Let each of them shine in the minds and hearts of our leaders
Like stars in the heavens
Like the rare and treasured jewels they are to those that love them.
Let the illuminating light of love fill the minds eyes and hearts
of the Leaders and the People of my nation.
Of all nations.